honestly- right now things between us are not the greatest. hes a great guy and i will give him the credit he deserves for trying his best. i am lucky to have him due to the fact that no matter what happens he stays and he tries to make it work. however, there are issues between us that just dont seem to be working out and there are things he does and issues he has that i dont like or want to expose my daughter too, so if things work out then great, ill be happy and if not, then i move forward and do this alone. either way itll be fine. 

i love paul, but our relationship is far from passionate, deep, emotionally stimulating or even romantic. we are amazing friends, we have a great system of communication, and we never fight fight. so as far as being happy - i am happy. i wish it was more than just a friendship like relationship though, i wish i felt beautiful, or sexy and i wish we connected more in a physical way cause right now, i feel like that is our biggest pitfall. 

You need my name. But I’d rather not post that on my tumblr if you want it message me non anon and I’ll give it to you - that is if you’re not one of a few select people lol

That he and I basically were together for a while and we shouldn’t have been and that I got pregnant and we decided to continue our separate lives and I got to raise her and love her and that sometimes things don’t go the way they’re supposed to but that doesn’t mean that they weren’t meant to happen